It's a done deal...

It's real now. According to the agency we had the quickest contract neogations ever!
Friday February 15th everything was set up, meds were ordered. Saturday the 16th a large FedEx box came and I was supposed to start lupron that night. Transfer is scheduled for March 15, 2013.

We had dinner reservations that night with our bffs - I was so nervous/anxious I threw up in the ladies room. When I came back to the table I started crying. Everything has happened so fast, and while I wanted it to this is the most adventurous thing I've ever done. I don't do crazy things. I don't take risks- until now. I couldn't change anything, contracts were signed, sealed and delivered. I didn't want to change anything, I was just scared.

When we got home K administered my first shot. It wasn't all that bad, but these are the easy ones.
The next night I attempted to give myself the lupron- no dice, I started sobbing. Jay did it for me. Tonight should be interesting, jay is at work so I HAVE to do it myself... Everything I read says its mind over matter... Fingers crossed!

Our IPs have been great so far. I really hope the relationship grows into a lasting friendship.

Is this really going to happen?!

Hi everyone-

This is what will most likely become the journal of my surrogacy journey.

I have been inspired by Bill and Guiliana Rancic to give someone the greatest gift life has to offer- a baby, or babies.

After watching the episode where their gestational surrogate gave birth to their son I searched the Internet looking up how to become one. I never in a million years thought that I would get a follow up phone call. I figured I would throw my intentions out into the universe and I could always say "well I signed up to be a gestational surrogate but I never got a call back."

I was dumbfounded when two days later my phone rings and its a surrogacy agency. I was even more shocked to hear that I was an ideal candidate and could be matched quickly.

Jay my husband knew that I had applied to this and he thought I was clinically insane but even he didn't think I would get a call back.

He was at work and when he called that night I told him about my phone call with TJ, the company owner. He was worried, skeptical, nervous. The next time he came home he spent well over an hour on the phone with TJ getting all of his questions and concerns answered.

We still didn't really think another couple would choose us. A few days later we got an email that two separate couples were interested in me. I was shocked. TJ sent us their profiles but in the end I just didn't feel "right" about them. I asked her to send us more when she got them.

We got T and A's profile when Jay was home on Christmas leave we looked at it together and we both felt as if if we were going to do this we wanted to do it for them.

My profile was sent to them, they liked me and wanted to move forward. It went quick after this.

My medical records were approved, we passed the home visit, the introduction email was sent.

Holy smokes.

I REALLY need to tell my mom and dad. I had already told my sister and a couple close friends and they are all on board. I was so scared to tell my mom but I just blurted it out on the way to my cousins baby shower. Much to my surprise she was so supportive.

That night jay and I called T and A on the phone. Talk about nerves! The call went well. I really liked them, so did jay. We could tell just how emotionally invested in this they were. They've exhausted all other options and avenues. Makes me realize just how fortunate I am to be able to get pregnant so easily.

So here's what happens now- I need to tell my dad. He has to be okay with this. We meet up with T and A on Saturday for lunch. Next Wednesday jay and I go for our psych evaluation and for the introduction with the IVF clinic.

I'm not going to publish this for awhile but I wanted to be able to record all my thoughts as I head down the road of gestational surrogacy...




Thanks for reading :)